Can't Resist

After our petty conversations few days ago, I didn’t expect he would say that. I just can’t explain how it hurts knowing that he had her girl already. Burst of bloody pains run out my veins all throughout my body. My heart is crying though my eyes are dry. I wanna cry it out loud. I’m so damn broken. I know I got no reason to react ‘bout it. It was just so maddening to feel this way. I know he’s not a no-good. But...why I’m so him that much? 

Next day I used to go over her profile...find out what happened! OMG! This sucks...Its oh-so-true. He had his girl already and seeing that picture together crashed me so much. I don’t know what to do. I was locked out in shock. I’m wondering how long really that was taken ‘coz it’s just a few months ago since we’re in touch with crappy flirty things. It’s just a few months ago when I used to believe with his pretty word not knowing it was all lies. But you know what...I feel like I was a nitwit. Imagine, what the hell I was thinking after all? I still hope...damn! I know it should not be like that. I should not feel& react that way. Gross. Can I let somebody poked me up from this cranks?

We Are Who We Are

Normally, we got an impression with a person the first time we meet them. Their gestures, their physical appearance, and how they talk. Those impressions give us that specific distinction of our personality. Those impressions will give us our personal integrity, our personal value. And those impressions will be the basis on what treatment others bestowed on us. The thing is...what makes a positive impression to be the first that will last?

My POV is that...sometimes this is not really a sure enough thinking. I guess being more of ourselves will always be the best answer. Oops wait...by the way, being our selves is not that just easy. We tend to be out of our minds, everything of us actually, especially when we’re with that someone we like, we see someone we admire, we meet someone that makes us flicker. Isn’t it so awkward that we feel conscious? We’re now trying to be who we are not. Being in the state of consciousness make us uncomfortable. The way we act seem to be unexpected. We can’t concentrate. Hmmmnn...sidesplitting!

Another thing...be confident & flash a smile! We can smooth things out of how we deal with such personal consciousness through confidence. Take note – just don’t overdo it. There are times also that we might feel mousily strange and it’s normal. It’s kinda cutie...phew, and a little demure at the same time. Well, throwing up a simple smile will blew out people to give their impression positively. We tend to feel attractive and beautiful. That smile is a foundation of building up confidence. Who knows...someone is in love with your smile hehe.

I always used to keep in mind that impressions defines us, so better take off your shoes and express yourselves then flicker us with that oh-so-lovely smile, though we know we can’t please everyone...at least...we are who we are.

A Quotation

There was a time I wanted to beep on with friends. So I thought of sharing them somewhat weird but cool-Friendly phrase. It made me laugh. Check on this original quotation of mine that I’d sent:  

“#100% Quaranteed Physically or not:

Keeping in touch

means

Keeping relationship

alive.

So...

More touch...

deeper connection.”

I come to think. How does it sound like? I ideally got nothing to express but pure “hi or hello”. Some find it the other way. It’s so funny. I didn’t imagine they may view it that way. As I had a second look at it...whoops...there might be. Oh my...it’s kinda relatable but don’t take it literally then, it’s purely the other way around. Hmmn, not so big deal neither. 

Honestly I emphasized the phrase of “keeping in touch”, the word “connection”, which really means a lot to me. It’s one way of valuing a relationship, isn’t it? It’s one way of showing your care and appreciation. It creates trust and openness. It creates joy and love. Hey, it’s just one beep & it doesn’t waste so much time to keep in touch, to say hello, hi, how are you? It’s just once in a year to greet someone on their birthdays, to say Happy Valentines, Merry Christmas, Congratulations & greetings on other special events. Even in our busiest days, despite our distance, an unfathomable feeling of gratitude & significance that we might give to someone if they get one of it from us really count. At the same time, you feel the same way too. You know what, it’s guaranteed...an assurance of great connection is there and it’s always worth to do it. I guess you know how it feels like then right?  Those words of compliment and endearment remind us that we are really connected with that someone who appreciates and give value to our existence. It means how important that person is to us. Building a great connection means building a great relationship. 

So...what you gotta do...start building up your relationship, pick up your phone now, beep in that important person(s) to you & see what might happen next. 

I.L.Y.

It was so strange how we met in awhile

In that cool breezy Feb night.

Can’t keep me off your sight

Can’t help me but to smile…

That smile…so bright.

Can’t take that breath away…

All I can say now is that…

Now that I like you

And I think I love you.

Now that I miss you

And I think that I love you.

And I guess I do love you!

It feels like I’m in cloud nine

As you hold the hand of mine

I’m so turned-on with you

I’m really so into you.

I always want you

And I always need you

Every minute isn’t a waste

With you I feel so safe

All I can say now is that…

I love you babe! 

Sick on You

You know what...going back to that place again...where you got so much memories...really sucks! Everytime I come into this place especially when I’m alone, I feel so paralyzed. My heart cried so loud and I got nothing to do but to let all these wounds be washed just to ease the pain I feel inside. This time, where I know I can’t see him anymore. Where I can’t talk to him anymore. It’s totally so incomplete to be here without him. Of all the things that we have shared, laughters, stories as well as those flirty things...just between us-it’s ridiculous...it’s creepy...and I love it.

It made me so upset, imagine...3hrs of dawdling...husssh...so sickening and I feel like I’m gonna die in a second. What a big sigh! It’s really hard you know. It’s been a dull-trip-thing ever.