#Ghosted

     I

     As the morning comes                             
     When I woke up
     I open my eyes
     And I look up
     I felt the sadness
    Your name popped-up
     I just then realized
     Missed you so bad.

 
  II                                                                                     IV

  I open my phone                                                             We're in rhyme
  I found nothing                                                               When we started
  No messages shown                                                        In a bit of time
  I hold my breathing                                                        Things were twisted 
  Thinking all alone                                                           Got me in a dime 
  There could be something                                               Been enchanted
  It's been so strange                                                          Believing you're mine
  Everything changed.                                                       Oh...I'm ghosted.

  III                                                                                    V

  I'm wondering                                                                  Came the night
  Could be a nightmare                                                       I'm still waiting
  Am I dreaming?                                                               Finding the light
  But I'm so aware                                                              I keep hoping
  Blinking my eyes                                                             Just to feel right
  Covering my ears                                                             Gotta be going
  I see sweet lies                                                                  'Til I close my eyes
  Heard trembling gears.                                                     Memory flies.

Burstout

#ImLovaholic_Burstout

I came to this part where I just can’t move

Telling me something that it’s not that good

Gotta be sitting still like I’m ‘bout to breakout

I’m gasping to catch some air all throughout

But all I can hear now is my heart’s crying

Damn! It was so loud that I gotta be fainting

How insane it is that it kills me inside

It bleeds through my veins and I just can’t hide

Got from a stab that hits straight through mine

Seems like I’d been shattered down the line

I’m trying so hard to fight this pain I feel

For I know that I’m so weak and it’s hard to deal

Didn’t thought it would end in such a mess

Didn’t thought believing in such a haste

Holding on to that gold chain cloaked with rust

‘Til I notice my fingers are burning in gust

I cautiously loosen up myself from that grip

Left me with bruise and mark that etch so deep

Shallow mind, irrational decisions, baffled emotions

I’m almost crashing from the limit of my dimensions

Read Her – Signs That a Girl Likes a Guy

It’s a pathetic thing for a guy to read a body language that’s why girl’s actions play a hard part from guys POV most of the time. Well, it’s a guy’s nature that they just can’t easily decode on what’s goin’ on with a girls head, what she’s tryin’ to mean, what she wants to convey.

IKR, girls mind and actions are kinda complicated. It changes very quickly and guys have a tough understanding ‘bout it. Opps wait, don’t be confused – read her. There are lots of signs but here, I came up with major signs summed up for you guys to watch out on us girls.

1.       Eyes – our iris dilates which denotes interest. So ya better practise on looking on our eyes.

2.       Smile – most of the time we’re smiling and laughing like LOL even with boring topics or lamest punch lines.

3.       Voice tone – unusual voice pitch on a high note to be noticed when you talks to us but we’re totally oblivious ‘bout it.

4.       Convo – we’re keeping up with the convo. Sometimes we don’t replied back so quickly ‘coz we wanna let you chase on a tease esp. when convo is done thru text/chat.

5.      Actions – we’re kinda tensed (blushing cheeks, palm sweating, stuttering talks, deep breathing, random touching of hair and a bit nervous)

You Got Me on HIGH

I have lots of people I used to admire from simple crushes to super like to love...oops, not that one I guess, it’s infatuation. They makes me smile, brighten up my gloomy days and makes me a bitzy crazy. I came up with this song composition as a reflection of those feelings. I’m not a song composer nor a singer, I just love to write. Well, the outcome??? I find it a little bizarre TBH and I love it. I have the voice memo already. The beat is kinda mixed of millennial pop/rnb/edm 'coz it's my preferred music genre but I’m still working on how this be put into an actual music unless...can someone volunteer to help me out with that? Haha. Hopefully to download it here very very soon. In the meantime, take a look down on these electrifying lyrics. Wish you like it!

I

The moment

I see you

My world stops spinning, my time stops running

I got intoxicated by you

II

As you get closer

over me

My heart keeps beating, my body’s screaming

As a poison spirit runs over me

Verse:

 And when you flash

 that smile...i...ile

Been captivated for awhile...

Chorus:

And I

Just can’t deny

This feeling of mine

Oh I’m on high

But I still gotta try...yyy

No I just can’t hide

Think I’m gonna fly...yyy

Yeah I’m on cloud nine

Coz you get me on high...high

You get me on high...high

 III

The moment

You look at me

Can’t help believing, seems like I’m dreaming

Those flashy eyes strikes intensely      

IV

Then I hear your voice

Yeah you talk to me

My gosh I’m blushing and I’m stammering

How irresistible this can be?

Bridge:

Coz you got me on high...iiiggghhh

You got me on high...oh oh...oooh, yeah

You got me on,

You got me on high

You got me on---

Expectations Hurt

It just hurt so much knowing the person you already liked didn’t met your expectations. Expectations on things that they should be doin’. Expectations on things that they should be showing. Wow! Hail to EXPECTATIONS...such a big word ugh. You know what? That expectation...that expectation hurts. It really hurts and it kills me inside AF. I felt like I’d been crushed, I felt betrayed, I felt hanged all over again. I can’t understand what the heck is goin’ on. Every time that I like someone they failed me. Expectations failed me. Phew. I don’t deserve it BTW. 

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You might ask “Why did you expect anyway?” I retort you in a question like “If someone gave you something to expect, would you expect anyway?” For me, saying yes to that expectation is like saying yes to chances and saying yes to risks.

Look, I let them feel appreciated the moment they show interest on me. I did my best to show that I do care the moment they show concern over me. I used to trust and gave them a chance the moment they want to prove something. I do constant convos which certainly mean that I gave time and it’s not a wasted time anyway. Voila, I took the chances and risks. Duh, isn’t it obvious that there’s an expectations I’m watching over them? I’m kinda skeptical. I know they knew it. C’mon, just few things from the usual expectations and to spell it out: it’s being consistent, it’s being sincere and it’s not giving up. WTH, it's normal to expect for those right? OMG this is insane. I don’t know what’s wrong but the fact is...they STOP! I bummed out and I expect that they don’t let me feel that way. Of all the things I’m expecting from them, there it is. Still, I ended up in woe and misery. Oh gross! Expectation sucks and hurts when it fails you. Sorry...I know there’s something wrong from expectations. What can I do then? I’m just a fallible human being. I expect knowing it would hurt. Sorry, I cared too much, I take risks...I fell damn in love.