Awkward Moment

That moment when you’re thought whispers “I like him”, and it feels so damn awkward at the same time. That moment when you used to be so silent coz you’re unable & uncomfortable to speak. That moment when you keep staring at him & suddenly takes off your gaze when he looks back. That moment when you feel conscious with your actions, you used to hide all your jittery inside. Hey, you know what??? Take a note of this one, you used to know each other in words...but for real...gosh its kinda blow off. I don’t get it, a part of me knows how to deal with it but still, it’s just I’m that Ms. KnowItAll. He kicked off my gawkiness by a nudge. Wow ugh, that’s a nice start, I think. So I should act the usual way, Isn’t it? How come I couldn’t?  

How come I’d been trap with that awkwardness? Oh! C’mon, that very moment could give it a shot. It’s a “don’t be a kill joy, go with flow and just enjoy” chance. This is so sickenin’, you know, I got nothing to do but to hush it up & take control over what I should have to, to take control the feelings bursting over me, to just let it happen & be blown by the wind. I understand that he’s been cautious over his actions ‘coz he’s guard off with his group of friends who knows nothing about us beeping up each other a long while. Honestly, there’s nothing to worry over things going on that very moment, coz it’s so typical. All I want is to know him a bit more, coz his cool, his funny and one more thing...he’s cute. At first, I didn’t notice, but as I get closer, OMG...he really is. Don’t you dare to smile even more, I’m gonna fly shhhhh. Anyway, on my way until it’s over, I always think of this so damn crap...errr. I can’t help it? Whatta freak. Dunno what to do? Please somebody let me stop this. I know everything of that moment is a Certified Awkward Affair ever.

Fab Feb

Ohh, it’s Feb again...Valentine’s Day’s comin’ again. I remember last year, V-day was just a typical day and nothing seemed to be special ‘ya know...I’m single. Anyway...that day sounds to be cliché. It falls on weekends...so it’s a TGIF kind of my usual night out. I gotta beep on my friends of course. Ooosh, I didn’t expect to have various invites. I came up with two groups to mingle with. One friend brought her friends...gals of course. So I gain sort of new people to befriend. We sang all night. They’re bubbly and funny. Errr crazy crap...LOL! The other one are my close friends, so I had to be there for a missed-clubbing-thing I’d craved for so long. Almost AM after that ludicrous songs, and I doubt of goin’ up in the club after. Another thing...I don’t have someone to pick me up on my crib to accompany me goin’ there for a cab ride. Honestly I beep up some, just to make few attempts. Phew..Sorry wrong timing. Bump! But I gotta be there...I’m the one who got that idea of party rockin’ single chick for that sickening valentines night blah. I dressed up hustily, retouched...there I go. Uh-oh when I’m finally there, I’m so wide awake in intense upon seeing the club. I missed it. Oh My...I’d enjoyed, though it’s not a wild & flirty night on me...no hot guys that much. Hmmm maybe they’re out in dates. Just enjoying the music dj’s playing as we booty shakes, head bangs, jumping and clapping hands up to the beat...yeah I really loved it. What a valentine experience ugh...singles still rule! LOL!

By the way, I got here something you should check out: Fun Ideas For Single People On Valentine's Day Go Gals start it out.

Can't Resist

After our petty conversations few days ago, I didn’t expect he would say that. I just can’t explain how it hurts knowing that he had her girl already. Burst of bloody pains run out my veins all throughout my body. My heart is crying though my eyes are dry. I wanna cry it out loud. I’m so damn broken. I know I got no reason to react ‘bout it. It was just so maddening to feel this way. I know he’s not a no-good. But...why I’m so him that much? 

Next day I used to go over her profile...find out what happened! OMG! This sucks...Its oh-so-true. He had his girl already and seeing that picture together crashed me so much. I don’t know what to do. I was locked out in shock. I’m wondering how long really that was taken ‘coz it’s just a few months ago since we’re in touch with crappy flirty things. It’s just a few months ago when I used to believe with his pretty word not knowing it was all lies. But you know what...I feel like I was a nitwit. Imagine, what the hell I was thinking after all? I still hope...damn! I know it should not be like that. I should not feel& react that way. Gross. Can I let somebody poked me up from this cranks?

We Are Who We Are

Normally, we got an impression with a person the first time we meet them. Their gestures, their physical appearance, and how they talk. Those impressions give us that specific distinction of our personality. Those impressions will give us our personal integrity, our personal value. And those impressions will be the basis on what treatment others bestowed on us. The thing is...what makes a positive impression to be the first that will last?

My POV is that...sometimes this is not really a sure enough thinking. I guess being more of ourselves will always be the best answer. Oops wait...by the way, being our selves is not that just easy. We tend to be out of our minds, everything of us actually, especially when we’re with that someone we like, we see someone we admire, we meet someone that makes us flicker. Isn’t it so awkward that we feel conscious? We’re now trying to be who we are not. Being in the state of consciousness make us uncomfortable. The way we act seem to be unexpected. We can’t concentrate. Hmmmnn...sidesplitting!

Another thing...be confident & flash a smile! We can smooth things out of how we deal with such personal consciousness through confidence. Take note – just don’t overdo it. There are times also that we might feel mousily strange and it’s normal. It’s kinda cutie...phew, and a little demure at the same time. Well, throwing up a simple smile will blew out people to give their impression positively. We tend to feel attractive and beautiful. That smile is a foundation of building up confidence. Who knows...someone is in love with your smile hehe.

I always used to keep in mind that impressions defines us, so better take off your shoes and express yourselves then flicker us with that oh-so-lovely smile, though we know we can’t please everyone...at least...we are who we are.

A Quotation

There was a time I wanted to beep on with friends. So I thought of sharing them somewhat weird but cool-Friendly phrase. It made me laugh. Check on this original quotation of mine that I’d sent:  

“#100% Quaranteed Physically or not:

Keeping in touch

means

Keeping relationship

alive.

So...

More touch...

deeper connection.”

I come to think. How does it sound like? I ideally got nothing to express but pure “hi or hello”. Some find it the other way. It’s so funny. I didn’t imagine they may view it that way. As I had a second look at it...whoops...there might be. Oh my...it’s kinda relatable but don’t take it literally then, it’s purely the other way around. Hmmn, not so big deal neither. 

Honestly I emphasized the phrase of “keeping in touch”, the word “connection”, which really means a lot to me. It’s one way of valuing a relationship, isn’t it? It’s one way of showing your care and appreciation. It creates trust and openness. It creates joy and love. Hey, it’s just one beep & it doesn’t waste so much time to keep in touch, to say hello, hi, how are you? It’s just once in a year to greet someone on their birthdays, to say Happy Valentines, Merry Christmas, Congratulations & greetings on other special events. Even in our busiest days, despite our distance, an unfathomable feeling of gratitude & significance that we might give to someone if they get one of it from us really count. At the same time, you feel the same way too. You know what, it’s guaranteed...an assurance of great connection is there and it’s always worth to do it. I guess you know how it feels like then right?  Those words of compliment and endearment remind us that we are really connected with that someone who appreciates and give value to our existence. It means how important that person is to us. Building a great connection means building a great relationship. 

So...what you gotta do...start building up your relationship, pick up your phone now, beep in that important person(s) to you & see what might happen next.